I was accepted to my college of choice !

Today I have good news. I was accepted to my college of choice. I spent some time thinking about the colleges that I want to go to considering different requirements. I wanted to consider benefits that help students in their home state and how that would help me get a good degree at an affordable price close to home. The college I chose is a research college and well known as a non profit organization. It helps Florida State students get ahold of a lot of the financial aid and scholarship benefits that will help students accomplish a degree in a budget. I applied to the University of Florida and University of Central Florida. Today I received my acceptance to UF and felt so excited that I was approved for my program of choice: A history major! I give thanks to God because a lot of my education and experience in journalism and extracurricular activities helped make me noticable to the college.

However, I feel a change of plans for my future. After speaking with the advising team at UF, they said that they will hold my application to History in the event that I will reapply in the future. However, I have a good reason for this decision. Under the current circumstances in my personal life.

In a previous post, I wrote about how I feel about going into the military; however, I feel it is important for me to confront my fears. That's why I feel that pursing the military will be a more beneficial option for me. The truth is my mother is missing for a few years now. Two out of those five years I suffered a mental collapse after hearing the bad news. In the third year, in an attempt to distract myself from that bad news, I pursued my B.A. degree online. As a result of the missing two years, my therapist says I suffered from trauma and that is why I could not remember a lot of events after the bad news about my mom. 

Now, I'm 26 and facing the realities of life. I grew up in a sheltered environment but now I am doing my best to move past all the sadness I feel from Mom's missing; the responsibilities I have from college and keeping up with social encounters. These social encounters are hard to keep up because a lot of people do not understand how I feel when I quite my emotions within myself. I never cry infront if them and they feel left out and isolated when I hold things from them.  Therefore, I feel it is necessary to take a big step and be brave for mom and my future. I know my family will feel better that I am in a safer place than college can provide. 

Come to think of it, college is full of nerds who are harmless to society; however, these college students are so lively; they all want to have fun, party and play as they get their lives together. I think I will feel left out and that my emotions are no plce to discourage these fun loving youths. Honestly, I am not the most social and waiting on the investigators takes its toll on me emotionally. Yea, sure not everyone will understand why I am saying I need my mom but I feel list without her. On top of that my bother just moved out and I need a safe place to stay. I feel better going out on my own for the first time by being a brave soldier.  

Therefore, I feel better by going into the military by having a safe place to go that will let me prepare myself. Plus, I feel that I won't feel so alone in a place where others won't feel so disgusted by the fact that my mom is still missing. It's hard enough to explain to people who don't know me that the police still haven't found her. This is emotionally draining. 

My hunt for internships

I might as well finish what I started. I submitted an application for an internship in journalism writing. With the qualifications I have, I am sure to get a position to pursue experience in something that I spent so much time and dedication in. If I get a position in this opportunity I will be so glad to use it to the best of my skills. I will hope to become a stronger writer and a better team player. This will make my skills shine out from my educational experience, which is definitely something that employers are looking for. I also saw some other opportunities online for internships abroad as a correspondent. It would be an exciting experience to learn and write in other languages. I know three languages: English, Spanish and French. I would love to learn some more. Hopefully, with some new opportunities, I can expand my wings and make my family proud of my efforts.

Would I ever consider study abroad?

For the past eight years, I traveled abroad on mission trips to Central America. During these experiences, I met new types of people in a different culture with the objective of sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ to native churches in Central America. A lot of these people are poor, with family units of three or four living in very small homes. They only make enough to pay the rent and buy the necessities for groceries. Children are encouraged to go to school as a way to escape poverty and become professional bankers, lawyers or engineers for example. However, a great part of the population doesn't like to read so many children drop out of high school at the age of 16 and unfortunately have to go to work and do very poor jobs to support a family. After seeing what life is like in these places, I realized my own need to study. I realized the value of education and why it is so important to slow down sometimes and think about the privilege of living in the United States. Beforehand, I never knew how well we have it even in America. We have a lot of amenities that other countries do not have and yet it is easy to forget how other countries would only dream about owning the latest smartphone, a car or even named brands. It is important to think about how other people go without eating for days sometimes as they study hard for their next meal. I wish we weren't so insulated.

As I think about other places and how I can use my interests to help in the Kingdom of God, I want to do something that will allow me to write. Whether I become an English teacher, a history major, or a nail technician I have to write. I want to write about stories that are important to others. If I observe other people's past experiences as a journalist or history major and write a plot based on the failures and successes of each protagonist who can identify with a community of thinkers and dreamers than I would feel like I left an imprint in the world. I really do not want to stay in the same place at one time but I would want t career that lets me explore other places in the world while I learn about its past and its future. Therefore, I love the idea of exploring Washington D.C., New York, France; Italy, Belgium, and the Netherlands for example. All of these places are full of rich history and stories that I could take with me into a historical novel. I would be able to explore the culture of these places and write about important people who helped make a difference in the world; in the kingdom of God.

Tell me more about your story. Leave your comments below if you have any suggestions about story ideas or places of interest that mean the most to you. What events helped change or inspire your outlook in life? Who were the people behind that inspiration?

Should I become a nurse?

I am waiting to hear back from the admissions office. Will I be able to transfer to nursing school instead? I like the idea of becoming a nurse as a career change because nurses are caring individuals and are well paid in the industry. As I scroll through Instagram, I see various girls my age switch their careers over to nursing after graduating from another career. They document their experiences taking selfies in their smocks with other students. I think it is a fun alternative.

If I ever do nursing, I would keep one lady in mind as I recall a story she told me about her granddaughter on a plane ride I took to New England. She told me all about her granddaughter who commits herself to study. She is just out of high school and says all she wants to do is focus herself on her studies and think about marrying guys later. She has no time for boys. I find that funny since most of my adolescent life I was very much in love and wanted to marry soon. Now that I am a little older I see that it is necessary to focus on studies before I let someone into my life.

If admissions allow me to switch my major, I would be so excited to begin my journey as a nurse.  I think I would focus my studies on primary family care because it is in a more intimate setting. I feel that focusing my time in this area is a contrast from a fast-paced hospital life. As I read more about nursing on Google, I find that there is also a lot of possibilities available for nurses abroad. They can become travel nurses and find meals and accommodation as travel nurses at no expense to them. As a missionary, I think that would be a great bonus experience. I can see other places in the world and help other people heal in the process.

What do you think? Please let me know in the comments about your experience in a career search? How many times have you changed your major? Were you more open to creativity or how did you pursue a new profession? I want to know more about your lifestyle in the comments.

Why I would comit to the fine arts

The times are changing, and leaves fall in autumn. I have decisions to make and I need a quiet place to think. Away from the noise, away from stress, away from bossy family. I might need to find an artist's residency while I grow out of this nest. My parents were mostly strict growing up and I felt sheltered most of my life. I still feel the affects of PTSD from my past but I am learning to put things behind me. Moreover, now I am older but I am still young at heart. Life has taught me to value education above everything else but I feel the pressure is on for me to read, read, read. I have actually learned to love to read but sometimes I feel the sharp shooting pains that do not permit me to read any more than I can concentrate for long periods of time. I hope this isn't something so serious and I just pray and work through these headaches the best that I can.

Morever, as times are changing my brother just left. Our dad did everything to get my brother in vocational school upstate and now it is just me and dad. He is old and cranky. I do not want to bother him so I need to find a place to stay but I have two criteria: I must stay close to school and I must stay close to the embassy. I say this because school is more important than anything. As long as I have a degree I can bounce back and be someone in this world. However, as I am overcoming feelings of being sheltered I am thinking about how I can find a mental break, finish my masters and live somewehre that will allow me to grow as a person.

Art school might be a good place for me to be myself. I would have a quiet place to rest and work while I pursue freelance writing. I will make art that is important to me and indulge myself in art history. There are a few projects that I have in mind for my family but should I consider leaving this for a later time? I have to think about the possibilities.